It's been a long time since I posted anything. Kinda busy these days. Been busily entertaining myself with others' blogs though. Anyway, I've finally put a tough week behind me. 2 quiz and a 1-hr presentation are now safely in the bag. Not exactly safely lar..but the fact that I don't have to worry about them any longer makes me feel safe about it. And I've submitted my application to Illinois, along with 20 other wannabes contesting for that elusive sole slot. The pros and cons kept running through my mind this past week. It was like two forces trying to tear me apart. To go or not to go. The opportunity is damn tempting I must say, but at the same time it was like flushing 10-12k worth of money down my toilet bowl for an experience that is categorised as 'once-in-a-lifetime'. JS mentioned that if I come back the very same person, I will be better off staying in S'pore, which is kinda true. Good lor, at least I hear some negative comments about Instep. What's pulling me back, xp asked me. It's not only the cost, although I can imagine my mum straining herself to the max, especially when my sis is getting some headway in her studies, finding satisfaction in her work and scoring distinctions along the way. More importantly though, I told myself to achieve something in my 2nd year of NTU. I wanted to move out of the comfort zone and start to build myself. Somehow, I donned upon the realisation that staying in S'pore could probably allow me to achieve more. I want to learn from the trading guru in Antonio. I want to take greater responsibility in the Business Case Competition. I want to make an impact in NBS. I was asked to vice-chaired the FOC for next year. I can apply for SUSEP and experience myself in a smaller dimension in SMU. I can take up the entrepreneurship minor next sem. They are pulling me back. Similarly, I can see myself opening up in the prestigous Illinois, getting new insights about life and probably improving myself as a person when I come back. Argh! How??